PURPOSE

Life is important. Do you know something else? in every way it is important. so what is the purpose for this? see if you have a purpose and you fulfil it, what will you do? Bored, isn't it? it is just that life is so intricate  and so phenomenally intricate, that if you spend 10, 000 years looking at it carefully , you still will not know it entirely. if you spend a million years looking at it with absolute focus, still you will not know it in its entirety. Thats how it it...

Is there a meaning to it?

The greatest thing about life is that there is no meaning to it. This is the greatest aspect of life that it has no meaning to it and there is no need to it to have a meaning. It is the pitiness of one's mind that it will seek meaning, Because,  psychologically you will feel kind of unconnected with life, if you don't have purpose and a meaning. People are constantly trying to create the false purposes. Now, they were quite fine and happy.  Suddenly, they got married. Now the purpose is other person. Then they have children. Now they become miserable with each other. Now the whole purpose that I go through all this misery is because of children. Like this, it goes one. These are things that are causing and holding these as purposes of life. And is there a God given purpose?  WHAT IF GOD DOES NOT KNOW YOU EXIST!? If you pay little attention this purposes of life,  you would not need any other purpose. It will keep you engaged for a million years if you want. There is so much happening. So much means so much unbelievable things are happening right here.  If you pay enough attention. A million years if existence, It will keep you busy or more :)

Right now,  the need for purpose has come because, you are trapped in your psychological structure. Not  in your life process. Psychological structure functions from the limited data that is has gathered. With in that it rolls and right now, your thought and emotion has become far more important than your life. Isn't it so? So, because of you seeking a purpose as an escape from the trap that you've set for yourself. IT IS A TRAP SET BY YOU!

You can easily come out of it. But that is a whole thing. Why it is so difficult is, now you're identified with the trap you like it because it gives you a certain sense of safety and security and protection and individual identity. If you build a cocoon around yourself, it gives you safety but, it also imprisons you. First thing you need is balance. If you've balance then you can climb. If you dont have balance, it's better you stay on the ground, isn't it? It is not safe for somebody who is not balanced to climb high. It's best you stay close to the ground. You should not climb.

So, first thing is to establish a balance. Then you loosen your psychological structure. Then it's a wonderful thing. If you are loosening your psychological structure without balance, which lot of people are doing today, see, why does somebody want to drink alchohol or take drug, because it loosens your psychological structure and makes you feel liberated for a moment. But without the necessary balance, you have not worked for the balance, but you got your freedom. Freedom without balance is destruction, anarchy, isn't it?

So, first thing is to work for balance, an enormous sense of balance. Where even if you dismantle your psychological structure, you can simply live here. Dismantling your psychological structure is an important process. because, that is your trap. That is your security. That is your stability. At the same time that's your trap. Because the walls are set, you feel secured, but that's also your trap. If you dismantle your trap, you also dismantle your security, sense of purpose, everything that matters to you,  isn't it?  That will need balance. without balance, if you dismantle you will go crazy.

But, don't look for a purpose. Because, if you look for a purpose you are seeking madness. If you find one you are sure mad. If you think you have found a purpose in life you still..... you're for sure gone crazy. Because only the insane people have purpose or people who have purpose are insane in many ways. These are things that you create in mind and believe it's true, isn't it?

The purpose of the life is to live and live totally. To live does not mean party every night. To live totally means, BEFORE YOU FALL DEAD, EVERY ASPECT OF LIFE HAS BEEN EXPLORED. Nothing has left unexplored. You do not live anything untouched. You just do that. That will take a long time. That's good enough purpose for you!
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Emptiness...

Still recall the days I used to walk away

Time when the sky was clear’n home right away

I knew that love would come’n find me some day

Did’n I know that was you who headed my way

You caught me off guard n my heart let fly away

Sometimes I wondered if it’s really true

All there was smile and pride and dreams come true

You were the strength and shadow that gets me through

I don’t need to prove my feelings coz they are true

All I dreamt was to be in endless love with you

Now I believe it was never meant to be

I miss the way how we were used to be

I knew that you were just looking for a sign

You’ll go back to your world and never be mine

I was just to make realize that you need her more

Still recall the days I used to walk away

Time when the sky was clear’n home right away

I knew this love will end and break me some day

I knew that you’ll leave me hard and go away

Now I see the way to home is too far away

CAPITAL CITY TO HARYANA...

CAPITAL CITY TO HARYANA…

From 12^th June 2012, I’m one of those huge number or travelers who set afoot each day from capital city to Gurgaon. It is good to hire a mini coach unless and until you are in the city with one of the popular options of tourism. Rama Krishna Puram, Sector 2 houses have got time schedules. Water for the day, 5 am is the time. I've learned a thing that I’ve to change my wake up time.  5 am for water, followed by occupying that single toilet which was actually shared by 7 people. 6 am at R K Puram bus station with Wi Fi connectivity, TV and coffee cafe remained a dream. DTC 611 - 8th stop and I never missed my counts all through initial days. From AIIMS metro station, at times with the book I read or simply staring at any one whom never bothered, till I reach the last station of yellow line. Subsequent to the one hour long journey in metro, by some means, I have to find or make space for my part in that sharing auto which covered 10kms at cost of Rs.10 with almost 14 people from Gurgaon metro station to my destination place, so that I’m in office at sharp 8:00 am.

 Now its secure full time one year in the city of chills and rapes, I've been ruminating what brought me here? What I've become in one year or what I learned? Long journeys are not enough sometimes to understand insight. A promise that I kept to a friend, the dream of meeting that special someone or to free myself from the familial bonds and its demands?  What dragged me here? Fate? Destiny? -  A Horse. I’m just kidding. So it is the sentence in bold J. Things never remain same for a long. If you are sheltered well just 500 mtrs away from your working place, the chances of struggling for bus, for metro trains and autos are rare.  That one person who took a little space in my heart will remain always. I never had a close look on this 80 year old mistress. She always had a Chunni over her head and cane in her hand while on foot. People nearby used to reduce their ego in front of her and she becomes the devotee. Devotee of Karuna. I always lacked in courage for looking straight into her eyes, even though I was certain about her looking at me quite a few times.

Like every other day, she was sitting on her Charpai. 7:50 am at the empty lane, 30 meters away, I looked at her and I sensed a divine presence next to her. That unflinching courage made me look in to her eyes. I wanted to wish her, go next to her, and lay a hand on her feet. All I could do was smile soft and her’s beamed like sun. She called me close to her and I could feel her right hand over my head. When my phone alarmed, I travel back down the road and realize it was just an early morn dream of my last day in the city. Walking down the street I expect a feel of dream come true. I am going back to my place and that last walk through the street is everything. Courage is unrelenting and my search for her. I could only find the cane kept next to the wall beside her Charpai which was left alone. I kept on walking and did not look back because I was feeling blessed. J     

ChAnNz – Effervescence of Ecstasy with Friends!!

We long to those days…

Wish we could linger more…

It has been truly said that Friends can be New, Friends can be Old, All of them are precious as GOLD.  A lot of people go through life with only a few friends. It seems that some have less than that. Talking about  ChAnNz  , it was just a group of Three, few years back and now It’s an immaculate Bond of Trust, Love, Care, happiness, sorrow, compassion, sympathy, honesty and inanity. 22^nd July 2006 THE BIG DATE when this disaster happened and till now what is evident is in front of you: P!! It seems as if the friendship tale was already written before and we enacted our roles pretty well. We started just like strangers from unknown parts; it was just by chance we felt that we shared something common, in spite of the vast differences; the so called ‘BOND’. This grew a lot to that stage where it became inseparable. We were glad being together, at good and bad times, we were glad that we could understand each other better than we could understand ourselves. In this tiresome four year life, this comradeship gave us a stand to survive on, a new hope for tomorrow. When either among us goes out the way, we had the rest two to sidetrack our paths in a proper way. Like any other relationship we too had small ties, misunderstandings in our way, but someone has truly said “some misunderstanding is essential for better understanding” and we are glad that we had met these. After all the best part of the relation comes when you really feel for it and accept each others flaws us one’s own and we really felt this kind of aura. We didn’t have the feelings of YOU, YOURS among us, it was all WE and US. That’s the best part which we could attain. We just want to highlight one thing through this article and that is why we need Friends and Friendships? Friendship is a path of unrelenting concern. It is a view of life that encompasses not just your life but the life of the other. It is a special bond that is created out of genuine affection and is given freely to those who have shown their truth. It is given without the thought of reward but with the essence of the heart which longs for this special connection. True friends form a special connection that will weather any storm. True friends understand being human and give the other room to grow. True friends are there even when they are not expected to be present. Remember “Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born”. Through this article we are not heading with the point that ChAnNz is a group which has conquered all the limitations and have become the prefect statue of Friendship, but apparently it has become a channel of love, affection, support, and Joy to all three of us. Like others we had horrendous days, tedious nights before exams and much more memorable experiences of life time. So let’s get some real friends in this world and LETS BE FRIENDS!!!

Our life wouldn’t have been this smooth until and unless we had the blessings and affection from all those who were around us and specially to Madam Daulat, Yamuna mam, Mahalakshmi mam, Poonam mam, Monalisa mam, Karan sir… Dr Mittal and of course YOU, who had taken keen curiosity in reading this. We feel you are the lucky one among 1,169 million who got the chance to read about ChAnNz…JJJ

 It’s a great saying that—

The greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friend’s 

 PrabhaJ, AnnaJ, NeethuJ--- ChAnNz!!